The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and it has turned out to be a wonderful day. I still can not tell you all how amazing it is to wake up and not immediately run to the kitchen to get rid of the hunger pangs. I haven't had my stomach growl in several days which is new to me. I went to the grocery store and was able to get what I wanted, able to think clearly, and to not overspend on boxes and bags of impulse buys that I don't need. I will admit to getting the box of belgian chocolates, but I think that as long as my arm works and I can eat solid food, that I will be eating chocolate is one way, shape or form. One can't live so close to Belgium, Switzerland, and Germany without eating chocolates... that's my excuse anyway. When we get back to the States, I will have to come up with another excuse, but rest assured I will find one.
I have gained a pound but that's because my side effects are gone and I feel wonderful. I'm not overeating, but I'm not sick to my stomach either. I think diet is KEY to this medicine and that with a proper diet, and with the B-12 and WITH lots of hydration, that the sickness that many women feel while on it could be mended. I have basically cut every single refined carb out of my diet- for the most part. When I can buy wheat- I do. Anything from bread, hotdog rolls, pasta, rice, crackers.. even pancake mix. The wheat products are there, you just have to look for them. They cost more, but if the extra dollar keeps you from spending the evening in the bathroom, it's worth it right?
I still do not have a period, but my chest is sore which means some kind of hormones are working in there somewhere. I normally don't feel anything at all, but I may actually have PMS. I was always moody due to insulin levels constantly roller coastering up and down, but I am have PMS as in breast tenderness, changes in physical chemistry (you ladies know what I mean) I'm going to be brutally honest, because this is what this blog is supposed to be for. But I am starting to have a sex drive again. I'm not going to get into detail because this is not an X rated blog, but as this blog denotes, I am trying to resume womanhood- all that comes with it. One aspect that needed to return was my sex drive. Women with PCOS have high levels of testosterone and my estrogen is off the charts, but I think things might be leveling off as, like I said, things seem to be more normal. I am noticing things that I have not seen in a long time (like oddly enough, my bras fit better), and my body is toning from the walking but not bulking up like it usually does. Normally when I work out, I see muscle form right away, but this time, I am just toning. It is a nice difference.
I have had nothing but good to report so far, but being it is only day 8, I will not jump to conclusions that things will always be great... maybe I will get used to it so much that the effectivity wears off?? I don't know. This blog is for me to find that out, and to share it with you.
Can someone like me get better? Can Someone like me STAY better? Can I resume my womanhood or will I be under a surgical knife and only be female because the synthetic hormones allow me to?
I am praying for a recovery and the ability to be a woman as God intended me to be, but that is only if this medicine continues to make me better. So far so good. Let's hope it stays that way.